Depression?

Had the chance of googling thru web how to overcome the feeling that am having rite now..then bang!! They can write they can say thos esweet words and they do that without any feelings..so apasal lah aku bodoh bodoh baca artikel yang merepek suruh this and do that as if if am doing it i will be ok but for real am still like this.

There were so many many times i just wish i can let it go just like what he did but honestly i cant.This weekend when am alone at home i will just stress myself out by doing nothing but crying..yupe i feel so bongok sangat sangat but thats who i am and thts what am feeling.

There were so many times i just wished i could call up frens and have my time with them but bila fikir balik ok am too old for that..and frens my age are having their time with their own family.So end up duduk rumah.Yeah i did went for karaoke few days back with officemates tapi me end up singing all the songs that 'we ' used to sing it together in car.Oh yes my officemates dont know my status.When they ask i will be lying straight to their face.Bodoh kan??? yes my life is just a crap and i hate it..really really hate it.

Siapa yang tak nak dibelai,been hug and kissed? tipu if i said am not lonely..yes am damn lonely! ada masa i just wished theres a man for me..then bila fikirkan what i've gone thru..i skip that part..yupe it did bring a damn big hole in my life rite now.And as for him he can be with anyone he wished for coz am not part of him anymore...

Oh hell ya! Am so stressed up with my own feeling now!! and hate it so much!!