I miss my old me..

Yupe i miss my old me badly..lately am having lots of mix feelings.Lately ni banyak sangat flashback..and there are times when my eyes were in tears.Bukan sekali dua but almost everyday.Yes am keep looking forward and am doing just that.Tapi when the flashback came ,ada satu perasaan yang i cant describe in words.

Like this morning me and sister went to pasar borong Selayang and went there with her fren using his car which sama macam kereta waja that used to be mine..and flashback came..the first time we saw the car,the nite he brought me to see the car,the times spent in the car,the stories been told in the car and the best part the "word" he said it in that car..yes i sat at the back of the quietly pretending am asleep padahal tears drop tak berhenti..

My sister used to said "menangislah if you need to cry " so that i could feel better and am doing just that everynight..Am writting all here bukan untuk simpati sesiapa but its the only place i can express my feeling now.I have no one to talk with now..

Ya Allah berilah aku kekuatan sebab sesungguhnya aku tak kuat untuk lupa semua tu,aku cuba buat tapi aku masih belum berdaya lagi..