Thursday, January 11, 2018

HANOI










Went to Hanoi Vietnam early December haritu...well super nice view and place..tapi sekarnag malas buat caption hahaha...tgk jerlah pics yang berada adoooo ni..hahaha..

Well i will be in Turki dari 28th January till 6th Feb...nnt kita upload gamabr main snow eh hahahah

Tuesday, January 2, 2018

Am ok ..

Almost 6 years back am suffering from depression tapi i take it slow. One after another macam macam jadi. Lately ni banyak baca pasal depression sampai tried to bunuh diri semua.I've been thru that stage and am not embarrassed to say so. There one time i lari ke dapur terus amik pisau tried to kelarkan tangan..its not funny tau. It was when i cant stand being in one roof with my ex. I stopped from trying sebab its just stupid.

Well pada yang ada rasa depress just make yourself happy.Do what u love to do.Ignore everything. Its not worth it at all buat benda merepek ni. 

Apapun ur sadness ur story it will never change. If you feel like crying just cry..if you feel like laughing just laugh..

This is what i did to overcome my feelings...i just cry..it does help to reduce a bit of the burden in me...well not all tapi bolehlah...

Lately ni i love to listen to Sam Smith Am too good at goodbye...cuba hayati...

Yupe to you..nampak macam am weak kan? well i've been thru lots more than u ever imagine..it never breaks me at all..thank you for being a part of my life journey...

Monday, October 16, 2017

Kuantan

Ho yeah...its my first day here in Kuantan..honestly badan masih penat banget dengan event yang lama the other day..capek sangat sangat tau...

So for time being i tumpang dulu my aunty punya rumah...end of the month will be renting a room dekat depan airport jer ni...walking distance dah sampai opis..

Doakan rezeki semakin murah yer..insyalah....


Thursday, October 12, 2017

Friends with ....

Tadi lepas habis kerja terus balik office setting for next team kerja kat Nusajaya..my phone bunyi..received msgs from Mr Sg..yeay his down in JB and nak jumpa..yeah kinda payah nak jumpa aritu sbb he is so bz with his project in Singapore..ok rushed to CS had dinner with him chit chat sikit and balik..
Dia pun the whole day spending his time dkt IOI main golf..so bila sampai JB mereng penat..haha
Well 30th ni he asked me to follow him to KL meeting with his apa association ntah..the other day oklah temankan dia..tapi boringgggg hahahaha...so bbila bosan the nearest to go is Pavillion..hmmm habis duit aritu . .pffftttt...ni 30th ni dia ajak cnfirm habis byk duit kat situ...hahahaha
Ramai yg tanya kenapa am not with him tho lama gila kot kenal...dari zaman sblm kawen lagi...well hanya Allah yg tahu rahsia itu..

Tuesday, October 10, 2017

All  missing now is to hug you so tightly..ada masa rindu tu datang..its ok..theres always a feeling yang you cant describe it thru words..thru writting..something that can make you feel so dowm..yeah admit i miss both of them..tapi what they did to me was beyond my imagination..ill let karma do the work..

Just came back from my short trip to Jakarta and Bandung..thank you to my Mr Blackie sebab sudi temankan..hmmm bab paling best is am not worried perut keroncong sbb x sempat nak keroncong..haha..insyallah planning for next trip to Bangkok perhaps..well i miss laughing at your malatah and those stupid jokes..paling x leh bla bila i show his pics terus tarik muka..siap sound..lenkali u pergi dgn dia lah eh! hahaha...chill lah bro..kalau dia dari dulu sincere definitely ill go with him duhhhh...apapun u still my best travel partner 🖤🖤

Monday, October 2, 2017

Tak tau nak tulis apa

You hurt me again and again...and this time its unbearable..



Friday, August 18, 2017

Bebel

Ok semalam my long time best peren aka orang kampung datang JB so harus dan wajiblah iolls paksa dia jumpa walaupun dia tak berapa nak redha..hahaha..

Lepas balik dinner selak lah FB lelama...fuhyooo dalam diam dekat 5 tahun ek kenal..dari dia tak kerja sampai dah kerja pastu benti keje..dari selekeh sampai dah pandai pkai baju kemeja acah acah smart..

Well dear fren aka brother since his so young then me..i wish u all the best dalam hidup ni. Am a very proud fren seeing u fall tapi u raised and get back on track again. Tapi dari dulu sampai sekarang kalau tang buat resume ke proposal ke ni lah mamat paling hentam ikut dannn jer..hahaha...

He is so good in cooking. Ada one time tu masa raya haji..mak n sis raya kat Paris, bro raya di Singapore..sil raya kat China..jadi me raya alone with bibik kat rumah..makanya memang confirm tak masak papelah...terus mintak simpati sebekas nasi minyak pada mamat ni hahahaha...

Mak pun selalu order food that he cook. She just loves the way he cook. Ni kesukaan mak ni...hahaha...mak cakap muka dia muka selamba kodok..hahahahaha..

Kalau am back kat Muar nilah mangsa pertama i akan paksa keluar ngeteh..hihihi..mak memang takkan marah if am out with him..sampai kul berapa pun takde hal..tulah dalam banyak banyak orang memang mom strust him the most..

Well as i said tadi am super proud with what he achieved now sebenarnya..walaupun tak lah powerrr mana pun but to watch u grow from a boy to a man..really makes me super proud..gosh sangat mak mak statement hahaha...

Apapun i doa yang baik baik for your business nanti eh...

yang pasti i nak free sentiasa hahahah

Thursday, August 10, 2017

Move on

Moving on? Cubalah..try it yourself if you can and if you think its easy..Took me longer..tapi i still laugh smile macam takde benda.Dalam ni biarlah dia rawat sendiri. Dont text me and asked me rindu ke tidak..hey its not that easy yer!

Ada masa macam tetiba dapat idea nak cakap kat semua hey u all i nak quit kerja and am gonna be out of errr i dont know where and i just dont wanna think of anything...bole?

Masa ke Perhentian the other day meet with this young and sgt kind hearted man dari Argentina. Asked him whats his plan ...opps i think ill be in Australia for few months work then ill be back and be on holiday again..senangnya hidup kan..and he is so freaking happy guy tau..i wished am like him...hahaha


Saturday, August 5, 2017

The sea..the view..the waves

Yes last week baru balik dari Perhentian..yang ke 4 or 3 been there..i was lucky sebab Black was there and always keep me safe whenever am there..thanks to him.

It was a last minute decision..booked everything somewhere before raya haritu..sebab hmmm...yeah nak release stress sekejap looking over the view of the seas...the waves..the salty smell of the sands..

I was so happy there. And surrounded by good people at heart. I really wanted to cry out loud masa kat sana..to burst everything..but never a minute Black allowed me to do so. He always there accompany me..making me laugh..making sure i had my meals..checking on me at all time.

Honestly i missed him badly. But decision been made and i cant turn it around. He has his own life now and i bet he must be happy with it. Dari dulu lagi ive made myself a promise..its ok if am the one who gonna get hurt sebab theres only me alone..if its vice versa..akan ada banyak hati yang akan sangat sangat terluka.

I have kept his kain safe in the cupboard..i did not put it next to me anymore..takpe sampai bebila it will always be with me..

Masa having dinner kat chalet cafe..looking at the view of the ocean tgk matahari terbenam..i wished hes there with me..then started airmata bertakung..haish!! macamanalah nak move on ni kan...hahahaha..

So next day kat Perhentian had a snorkeling trip with black and group of Argentina tourist..it was superb fun...they were singing atas boat..hahahaha..and semua sangat sangat frendly..Black selalu paksa i snorkeling..hahahaha sorry boh tak mau! Tapi janji will snorkeling with him masa kat last pit stop...the coral sangat cantik..and yes jumpa ikan pari masa snorkeling aritu...cuteeeee sangat!!
I'll definitely akan return there again and again...

How i wished you are there with me...swimming looking at the superb view..yeah we promised we planned tapi tak pernah dapat kan..and since its over now..tak mungkin dapat lah sampai bebila..hahaha...but well i always kept those angan angan..tak salah rite?

I still remember the last time we really spent time together kat Kuala Terengganu n Kelantan dulu..itupun kena menyamar..yeah masa balik tu hati siapalah tak sakit kan...all the way till Ipoh looking outside and airmata meleleh jer..grrrrr... but that was the last time me and arwah Cik Mat jumpa..i missed him too.. he used to tell me "He always happy when hes with you" .. yupe i always remember that...and sebab tak nak dia pening biarlah dia happy now with his life...hahaha...

Anyway ..masa kat KT the best moment bila dapat teman u mancing ikan..hahahaha...walaupun bosan nak mati..but being with you always makes me smile..tgk muka kerut kerut tahan panas..pastu tangan tu dok betulkan rambut pastu muka buat acah acah macam juara memancing..hahaha...i missed that..pastu i jadik tukang belikan umpan...berialah cakap kalau nampak air bla bla bla situ banyak ikan...hmmm ikan tecikkk jer dapat hahahaha...then you taught me mcmana nak lempar rod tu..hahaha...dont u remember that?

Apapun..memories always remain in me...never once i delete it..the first day we meet pun i still remember..but life got to on..i hold on to those memories..above all that i always love and missed you Chik..

Monday, July 24, 2017

Me....


Rindu pulak nak rambut macam ni..gosh lately bz kelaut sangat..i dont care bout my hair i eat what i want..well senang cerita i dont care at all bout myself..

This weekend nak spent time di Pulau Perhentian again...maybe balik tu need to chop chop my hair and betulkan the roots, taking care of my skin and my eating regime lah...seriously macam kak limah!