Tuesday, July 17, 2018

I know shes proud of me

Everyone tau am not that close to my mum...maybe betul orang cakap kalau muka sama sure asyik gaduh kan..hahahaha...but lepas ayah meninggal am bit closer to mum. Then yeah i know my fault sebab banyak buat mum kecik hati etc..and i gap myself sebab tak nak mak sakit hati and makan hati with me. So i make a gap there...

And i know kat situ pun mak dah kecik hati...ngeeee...well masa raya haritu kena dah sedas ngan mak hahahaha..shes complaining that i did not spent more time with her.

Sekarang kan musim durian so punyalah dia gigih hantar pic doyan..hahahaha...

Dulu sepanjang am working as travel agent dia sangat sangat tak cerita kat kawan kawan tentang my work tapi lately ni tetiba banyak pulak kawan kawan dia go thru her and asking her for a trip...yeah mom i know u are super proud with me..kan kan kan...malu lah tu nak ngaku hahahaha..love u mum..

Tuesday, May 15, 2018

And finally you called me

Yupe semalam you finally decided to whatsapp me kan..well to you things will never ever be the same again. Ive been suffered throughout the whole relation ni...and i need to put a fullstop for it..cumanya as i told you before i will forever be your friend.

Masing masing dah tua..masing masing dah ada haluan hidup sendiri...masing masing boleh berfikir dengan waras..so we have to act wisely. Ya i pity the whole story of yours all i have is my shoulder as a fren if you need my ears..and its all yours..

Last few weeks ive been crying a lot sebab i miss you sangat..maybe sebab its your birthday month and we had the chance of celebrate it together kan before our last goodbye..rupanya when y texted me semalam and ceritakan semua now i know why i cried...maybe i feel you..

Apapun dugaan yang datang sabarlah...mungkin ini bahagian you..and life will not always be on top..i know you struggle a lot..tak apalah mungkin ini ujian buat you...you antara orang yang paling penyabar yang i kenal..and biarlah sabar tu sentiasa ada pada you..as for me tiada dendam tiada marah dalam diri i to you..i will always be your fren..

Mungkin disini bukan untuk kita...

Thursday, January 11, 2018

HANOI










Went to Hanoi Vietnam early December haritu...well super nice view and place..tapi sekarnag malas buat caption hahaha...tgk jerlah pics yang berada adoooo ni..hahaha..

Well i will be in Turki dari 28th January till 6th Feb...nnt kita upload gamabr main snow eh hahahah

Tuesday, January 2, 2018

Am ok ..

Almost 6 years back am suffering from depression tapi i take it slow. One after another macam macam jadi. Lately ni banyak baca pasal depression sampai tried to bunuh diri semua.I've been thru that stage and am not embarrassed to say so. There one time i lari ke dapur terus amik pisau tried to kelarkan tangan..its not funny tau. It was when i cant stand being in one roof with my ex. I stopped from trying sebab its just stupid.

Well pada yang ada rasa depress just make yourself happy.Do what u love to do.Ignore everything. Its not worth it at all buat benda merepek ni. 

Apapun ur sadness ur story it will never change. If you feel like crying just cry..if you feel like laughing just laugh..

This is what i did to overcome my feelings...i just cry..it does help to reduce a bit of the burden in me...well not all tapi bolehlah...

Lately ni i love to listen to Sam Smith Am too good at goodbye...cuba hayati...

Yupe to you..nampak macam am weak kan? well i've been thru lots more than u ever imagine..it never breaks me at all..thank you for being a part of my life journey...

Monday, October 16, 2017

Kuantan

Ho yeah...its my first day here in Kuantan..honestly badan masih penat banget dengan event yang lama the other day..capek sangat sangat tau...

So for time being i tumpang dulu my aunty punya rumah...end of the month will be renting a room dekat depan airport jer ni...walking distance dah sampai opis..

Doakan rezeki semakin murah yer..insyalah....


Thursday, October 12, 2017

Friends with ....

Tadi lepas habis kerja terus balik office setting for next team kerja kat Nusajaya..my phone bunyi..received msgs from Mr Sg..yeay his down in JB and nak jumpa..yeah kinda payah nak jumpa aritu sbb he is so bz with his project in Singapore..ok rushed to CS had dinner with him chit chat sikit and balik..
Dia pun the whole day spending his time dkt IOI main golf..so bila sampai JB mereng penat..haha
Well 30th ni he asked me to follow him to KL meeting with his apa association ntah..the other day oklah temankan dia..tapi boringgggg hahahaha...so bbila bosan the nearest to go is Pavillion..hmmm habis duit aritu . .pffftttt...ni 30th ni dia ajak cnfirm habis byk duit kat situ...hahahaha
Ramai yg tanya kenapa am not with him tho lama gila kot kenal...dari zaman sblm kawen lagi...well hanya Allah yg tahu rahsia itu..

Tuesday, October 10, 2017

All  missing now is to hug you so tightly..ada masa rindu tu datang..its ok..theres always a feeling yang you cant describe it thru words..thru writting..something that can make you feel so dowm..yeah admit i miss both of them..tapi what they did to me was beyond my imagination..ill let karma do the work..

Just came back from my short trip to Jakarta and Bandung..thank you to my Mr Blackie sebab sudi temankan..hmmm bab paling best is am not worried perut keroncong sbb x sempat nak keroncong..haha..insyallah planning for next trip to Bangkok perhaps..well i miss laughing at your malatah and those stupid jokes..paling x leh bla bila i show his pics terus tarik muka..siap sound..lenkali u pergi dgn dia lah eh! hahaha...chill lah bro..kalau dia dari dulu sincere definitely ill go with him duhhhh...apapun u still my best travel partner 🖤🖤

Monday, October 2, 2017

Tak tau nak tulis apa

You hurt me again and again...and this time its unbearable..



Friday, August 18, 2017

Bebel

Ok semalam my long time best peren aka orang kampung datang JB so harus dan wajiblah iolls paksa dia jumpa walaupun dia tak berapa nak redha..hahaha..

Lepas balik dinner selak lah FB lelama...fuhyooo dalam diam dekat 5 tahun ek kenal..dari dia tak kerja sampai dah kerja pastu benti keje..dari selekeh sampai dah pandai pkai baju kemeja acah acah smart..

Well dear fren aka brother since his so young then me..i wish u all the best dalam hidup ni. Am a very proud fren seeing u fall tapi u raised and get back on track again. Tapi dari dulu sampai sekarang kalau tang buat resume ke proposal ke ni lah mamat paling hentam ikut dannn jer..hahaha...

He is so good in cooking. Ada one time tu masa raya haji..mak n sis raya kat Paris, bro raya di Singapore..sil raya kat China..jadi me raya alone with bibik kat rumah..makanya memang confirm tak masak papelah...terus mintak simpati sebekas nasi minyak pada mamat ni hahahaha...

Mak pun selalu order food that he cook. She just loves the way he cook. Ni kesukaan mak ni...hahaha...mak cakap muka dia muka selamba kodok..hahahahaha..

Kalau am back kat Muar nilah mangsa pertama i akan paksa keluar ngeteh..hihihi..mak memang takkan marah if am out with him..sampai kul berapa pun takde hal..tulah dalam banyak banyak orang memang mom strust him the most..

Well as i said tadi am super proud with what he achieved now sebenarnya..walaupun tak lah powerrr mana pun but to watch u grow from a boy to a man..really makes me super proud..gosh sangat mak mak statement hahaha...

Apapun i doa yang baik baik for your business nanti eh...

yang pasti i nak free sentiasa hahahah

Thursday, August 10, 2017

Move on

Moving on? Cubalah..try it yourself if you can and if you think its easy..Took me longer..tapi i still laugh smile macam takde benda.Dalam ni biarlah dia rawat sendiri. Dont text me and asked me rindu ke tidak..hey its not that easy yer!

Ada masa macam tetiba dapat idea nak cakap kat semua hey u all i nak quit kerja and am gonna be out of errr i dont know where and i just dont wanna think of anything...bole?

Masa ke Perhentian the other day meet with this young and sgt kind hearted man dari Argentina. Asked him whats his plan ...opps i think ill be in Australia for few months work then ill be back and be on holiday again..senangnya hidup kan..and he is so freaking happy guy tau..i wished am like him...hahaha